I LOVE YOU....

sometime life away from our family makes us a bit weak..same goes to me as i far away from family especially when i had big problems, having crisis n sick..those tough time makes me sometime miss my family so much..people see me happy outside but deep in my heart i keep lots of mysteries..

friends..we may meet lots of friends anywhere..no matter we still stay at the same place or new places..i met new friends here too..n some of them becomes my close friends like my own lovely house-mate..

hapy time..mad time..sad time..hard time..all in one..sometime felt hurt n hate..but when apart from them i feel missing them..

sick time..

we have nurse in my house n sy slalu kena dgn nurse itu..xboleh sakit sikit mesti nurse dh bising bg ubat..kalo xmakan ubat nnt nurse mrajuk..so makan ubat wpun xsedap smbl buat muka..then nurse ckp :ubat mmg la xsedap.."gonna miss dat moment since we gonna have long semester break..de masa mcm malas nk makan ubat tp since ubat dberi dgn penuh kasih syg, so hamba yg xsuka makan jd excited nk makan..dselimutkan kalo suhu badan sejuk sikit, aku buka jugak cz panas..hehe..sakit perut cz sndr cri pnyakit, ambek ko kn marah..skip dinner cz xde selera kn marah lg..ambek ko..xper...pas ni janji xwat lg..

sad time..

im crying cz i do stupid mistake in my asgmnt..ingt nk blagak macho la xnk nangis alik2 nangis jugak..hny Tuhan tahu mcm mna prasaan time tue..dkt 1jam jugak nangis sorg2..hantuk kepala tp semua dh blalu..i just nid to cry till i felt puas then im gonna b ok..

LIBRARY n RESOURCE CENTER..

2courses yg sm tp xserupa..begitu juga hbgn km smua..mula2 kenal mcm2 andaian muncul dminda..da yg aku ckp seyes giler n mcm sush nk tegur..da yg aku xingt nama lgsg..de yg aku xcam lgsg wpun blanggar bahu kalo jmp kt fakulti..kwn2 aku tny smpi xknl..aku jwb la "housemate aku smua cantik2 kalo dh make up..."

betul..aku xtipu...lmbt jugak la br aku dpt cam dorg..tp kami semua betul2 geng n kamceng2 pun br2 ni rasenye dlm bulan 3 kot..bfore tis mcm hye n bye jer..hehehe....

housemate2 ku yg cantik n cun tue xprnh skip mkn..sbb tue aku makin bulat..org lain kalo jauh dr fmly makin kurus aku lak makin bulat..mna x..kak long aku ni kalo dye makan mst share dgn aku..ckit pun sm2 ckit la..hehehe..so aku pun makin bulat la...my mum xpelu bmbg ya dgn ankmu di sini...aku ada org jaga dsini..hehehe

pe lg yg nk share yer...byk lg nk share tp biarla aku sorg yg tau pe lg..cz kalo nk crite dr A smpi Z alamatnya migrain la aku nk rcall balik..=)

buat housemate ku yg giler2 semua...

AKU SAYANG SAMA KAMU SEMUA.....

Kak long, Kak ros, woo yong ang2, yana, pink panther, mira, shira...

~love:berth~

childhood time...

last saturday having fun with my house mate at one playground..main semua permainan yg ada..mjerit n laughing smpi xingt dunia...hilang smua masalah n ketensionan smantara...time tue nsb cm de 2org jer since prumahan tue agak baru jugak la..masih byk rumah2 yg kosong lg...hehehe...kan bagus kalo dpt main hari2..hilang semua masalah n tension...anyway...perhaps there is next time..

dik su n kak long

kak ros, kak ngah n nek na

~loves~

~smile~

~loves : betho~

french...

good night.  =  bonne nuit.

sweet dream.  =  rêve doux. 

sleep tight.  =  sommeil fortement.

sleep well.  =  puits de sommeil. 

put on your blanket. =  mettez dessus votre couverture.

learning other language is fun if u get the right meaning of that words. i admire person that easily learn the language..i hope i can b like them..how they learn especially on how to pronounce it?perhaps someone can help me regarding those problem..hopefully after this i would like to learn spanish, mexico, italy, filipina, germany and others language..at least the basic one..

~love:betho~

  

2nd day of march...

love is there but if we do not express or tell person wat we fell, we might loose them...last nyte, i found ur fb..i looked at ur pic for moment..12pm celebrate my housemate bday..hapy birthday girl..1am i start to sleep..bfore sleep, we put my mattress on floor since too hot to sleep on bed..otherwise if i wake up in the morning my shirt will wet with my sweat..as usual bfore sleep i talked to Lord God..after that i wish good nite to my beloved one..there so many persons i love but only few of them that i always wish..zzzz...last nyte i dream about my 1st love..do not know y maybe coz i miss him so much..in my dream he was hurt n crying coz his gf dump him..n his gf make a confession that she just play around with his love..she never love him at all...i do not know wat is the meaning but usually if i dream about something or someone that thing might happen..my fren said "karma" if i not mistaken..if that things really happen, i will b there just for him..it's ok if there is no love for me but as long i'm given that chances to love him it should enough for me..coz my love towards him never stop...

~love:dearhoney~

i was wrong

i thought i forgot about u already but i am totally wrong..i hope n i wish the time we used to happy together can be rewind coz i totally lost my mind n my life full of sorrow the moment u walked from my life..u been such great man for me..u teach me wat is love all means..u lead me to the love world..u teach me missing n loving someone..there is no other person that could replace u in my heart..love may comes more n more but my love towards u never change..it still d same although i admit i hate u at the same time i love u..our memories i still remember..

~love:dearhoney~

kronologi cintaku

Last Saturday daftar diri kat UiTM Kampus Kota Samarahan. Roomate ku, Y, S and V. Minggu ni memang full cuma hari nie free sikit. Malam tadi 1.22am dah kena bangun and mendengar PM2 marah kami till 4am. Dahlah malam tue ku habis mesages dengan J dalam pukul 1 lebih...Memang tak tidur lah aku malam tue. Yes, next week J masuk sini dapat PRA Sains. Bestnya. (05 July 07) 

J dah pun masuk semalam. Dia called ku and tanya kat mana suis kipas. Lama gak dia called. Dalam 3minit lebih. Then dia nak jumpa ku before kitaorang start exam. Time tue exam untuk tentukan class for Bel 120 kalau tak silap. Bergaya betul. Dengan cermin mata. Dia nampak cute, handsome, cool, elegan...semualah. Terpikat aku. Paling teruk, time tue dia ada mengadu yang roomate dia ‘lembut’. Ngeri betul dia. (07 July 07, our 1st year anniversary) 

Petang habis class, ku ajak J pergi library coz nak buat PTPTN. Tapi malangnya library tutup. Then kitaorang ‘dating’ kat kantin till 5.30pm lebih. Sampai ku dekat bilik, roomate ku semua sakat ku. Diaorang tanya puas tak aku dating. Macam-macam lagilah. (09 July 07) 

Tengah hari Dear @ J ada called. Mengada-ngada pula panggil ku Honey. Ku nak juga panggil dia Dear tapi takut adik ku dengar. Dia siap kata “Miss you Honey. Love you Honey. Dear want to kiss Honey.” Ku pun balas, “Love you too, Dear. Miss you too, Dear.” Tapi kiss tue ku tak jawablah. (02 September 07) 
First-first ingat nak dinner kat kantin dengan Dear last night tapi parent ku datang hantar barang. So lunch date kat kantin the next day la. Hari tu kitaorang guna baju yang temanya coklat keputihan. Tapi nang bestlah. Kamekorang plan this Thursday jumpa g. Tengoklah. (09 September 07) 

This is messages from Dear. 
- Dear pun pening coz tak dapat lihat Honey... 
- Honey...Dear miss Honey...can’t wait for tomorrow... 
- Honey...you’re not my friend, not my girlfriend, but Honey are everything for Dear...love Honey very much can’t describe with a word how much Dear love Honey... 
- Dear pun miss Honey, very miss Honey 
- Honey, Dear ngantuk, can Dear sleep with Honey? 
- That only picture, Dear want the real Honey (10 September 07) 

Petang dalam pukul 5 lebih, Dear called. First-first dia message tanya ku ada clazz tak. Ku cakap ku baru habis class. Lepas tu dia called. Adalah dalam 5minit lebih. Malam dia called lagi. Time tu aku tengah dinner. Tapi sekejap je dia called. (11 September 07) 

Dear tiba-tiba message “Honey...do you mind if one day, you reall become my Honey” “Just want to ask, until now semua girl yang Dear suka tak suka pada Dear, maybe Dear should couple with Honey... Semalam Dear pun message “Good night Honey, Dear want to hug Honey in Dear’s dream”. “It will, coz Dear miss Honey...” (14 September 07) 

Messages from Dear (26 September 07) Time tu kitaorang ada gaduh sikit.. 
- I’ve a lot of problem...But, when I’m with u, I was the happiest person, I love u Honey, sorry. I broke my promise...las nite I said I’ll neer send tis word to u. 
- I can’t stand it anymore...that word make us closer to each other...Honey...Dear love Honey very much 
- Honey...I’m sorry, okay... 
- Love Honey too.. 

Another message from Dear. (Translation) 
- Namanya Elizaberth, I call her Panda, burung, Honey and I Love her, Janet called her Inik Andan..org lain called her Berth 
- Elizaberth I Miss You...why you didn’t message me? Yes, I’m busy all the time but I want to receive your message, read it then reply it...why you didn’t message me?.. 
- She know because I Love her... 
- I don’t care..I Miss you...I love you...I want to see you... 
- About you la...I’m happy eventhough it is only dream but I see you and talk to you... 

More messages from Dear 
- That’s why honey must be happy..don’t sad la..okay...dear don’t want honey to sad 
- What happen? Don’t like that...don’t leave me....alone without honey here...dear need honey 
- Dear didn’t ask Honey to be someone else, just be my Honey, be my Elizaberth, be my Panda, be my frenz, be my gurlfren that always happy.. (Unknown date) 

From Dear (Again unknown date coz I forgot to write it...) (Translation) 
- In your heart...tak dapat keluar, Honey close Honey’s Heart macam mana nak keluar...dear nak mandi ni, cepatlah open you heart... 
- Good night....I’m chatting wit another Jes instead of me rite now...now i know...Honey...i’ll try my very besy not to hurt your feeling. 
- Honey..I’m sorry because I’m disturbing Honey, I want to thanks Honey because Honey always by my side when I’m down, when I’m sad... I REALLY LOVE YOU HONEY... 

Somemore.... 
- Dear want to hug Honey but can’t, Dear want to kiss Honey but can’t, Dear hope Honey appear in Dear’s dream tonight... 
- Okay...tak apa, wait for another day to see Honey wouldn’t kill me...just a bit rindu to see Honey. 
- Since the day I started to miss Honey... 
- Dear didn’t study...Dear just tell what in Dear’s heart... 
- But I wouldn’t kongkong Honey...because Dear also don’t want Honey kongkong Dear... 
- Honey...if that person is me, I wouldn’t 
- K..Honey, sometime Dear thinking bout Honey, Dear really love Honey, hope we can stay together... 

More and more... 
- Honey...I’m sorry for what I’ve done, what I’ve said...sorry if I ever hurt you, I still and always love you... 
- Honey In my heart... 
- Dear also love Honey 
- Honey too always support me... 
- No matter for long we didn’t see each other that’s not important...important is we already meet each other again... 
- (Time aku cakap nak tukar handphone, I told “wait till Dear change for Honey..”) 
- Wait till Honey really become my Honey...but Honey always said don’t want if Dear asked 
- Honey I Love You... 
- No matter what happen I will always loves you... 

Messages from Dear (after ku agak lama tak message Dear; 21 November 07) 
- What happen to you? Why you didn’t msg me?...If you don’t want to be my friend, just tell me...so I don’t have to wait everyday for you msg.. 


From me 
- Dun say like dat my Dear. Of course Honey want to be ur frend and if possible I want to be ur special. I just not feeling well tis few days. Wat makes u think like dat? 


Dear 
- Nothing...I want to ask you something? Do you like me..? 


Me 
- As what? As friend? As brother? As boyfriend? As lover? How about you? 


Dear 
- As boyfriend..if you do...please don’t...I know I’m too selfish and I can’t control others feeling.. 


Me 
- How about if I say yes? Why? Do you love me too? I admit I do love you as boyfriend. How about u?do u love me? From d bottom of ur heart 


Dear 
- No... 


Me 
- Hmm...who say that u r selfish? For me u r not dat kind of man.. 


Dear 
- Thank you..for everything...your birthday will coming soon but I still don’t know what t give you. 


Me 
- Really? It’s ok..I don’t really need any present. Enough for me if I get birthday wish from d person dat I loved 


Dear 
- But I want to give you...and I will give you... 


Me 
- Well, up to you and I wont force you. You are not selfish. For me u r special coz u always by my side and dat was a special present for me. 


Dear 
- You also always by my side... 

One of the message that I love 
I will send black rose, I want to be Honey’s enemy so Honey will never forget me, I’ll send pink rose and yellow, I want to be your special fren, orange and white rose, I want to be ur best wishes and live a peaceful life with you, I’L ALSO WILL LOVE YOU, THAT WHY I’LL SEND RED ROSE 

Message from Dear (13 December 07)(Translation) 
- Ingatkan kamu yang kahwin, nasiblah cousin kamu yang berkahwin...masih ada peluanglah aku macam ni... 


Message from me 
- Kenapa pula bimbang kalau aku yang berkahwin? Kalau aku kahwin pun bukannya kacau hidup kamu. Kalau saya kahwin pun., saya nak kamu jadi pengapit saya. 


Message from Dear 
- Taknak...saya nak jadi orang yang duduk di sebelah kamu...hahaha... 


Message from Dear (14 December 07) 
- Suka hati la mahu tidur awal...aku tidur dengan kamu boleh tak..? 


Message from me. 
- Tunggu sampai kamu jadi kekasih ku kalau kamu mahu tidur denganku. 


Message from Dear 
- Kalau aku kahwin pun, aku nak berkahwin dengan kamu. 


Message from me 
- Kalau tak ada orang yang suka aku, kamu sajalah yang kahwin dengan aku. 


Message from Dear 
- Aku sayangggg kamu Panda...tak tahu macam mana nak kata, i wish we always can be friend...good morning...(17 December 07) 

Those are my real story...Some of the text I translate it...I admit I still thinking about him especially when I bump with him in UiTM. Now, he is happy with his girlfriend which is his own coursemate and classmate I guess.

He is with other girl right now n till now I still love n miss 
him...

~love:dearhoney~ 

my dream house

swimming pool outside my house

inside my house ; living room

nice to sit at that chair

~love; betho~